Wednesday Evening June 11 ^th 1679

Soone after I was in Bed ^{being perfitly awack} ⟨Ther opened a contine proverbe of paradis⟩ see by the ere of faith a very pleasant still river, And a bridg went crosse itt ^right passing in the midest like an arch but narrow; I went to goe up -on stone steeps ^{that was there} to goe on the bridg to a rock I see on the other side. But when I come neere, to thine, the brig went higher, like a cloud or rainebow, so that I see itt could not bee walked on, by a weighty body of flesh, But an -atheriall body, for the bridg was a cloud of aire. Then Icontented[?] my selfe to looke on the fur^rther side, of the river to the rock, and I see most pleasant greenes which grew as if they grew out of the rock. The rock was exceeding high, and large. It appeared like several greenes, and after other pleasant coullers, itt appeared more plainerto looke like, a rock but extreame pleasant and beautifull in great varietie, and beuty, but seemed like a rock but a rock of wonder, the more I wondered att the beauty, abundantly more beautifull itt appeared, yitt no great[?] light, but shaded, on the right side of this rock [...][?] sun began to arise, but itt was so exceeding glorious as I trembled, and could not behold. Then itt went downe After itt arose a little againe, but I could not beare itt So itt disappeared, though I had a desire to have borne itt and looked for itt, and if I did but looke towards itt itt began to appeare, as if it did declare that nothing hindered its rising, but my weakness as^that could nott beare itt, and thereby shewed his tenderness to - compashionate our weaknes, being in bodies of thick clay.

Thursday June the . 12

Being desirous to contineu^ue this pleasant object and further to understand this rock of wonder Folio 2v Which I dea remained; I see going forth of this rock mine inumerabl^inumerable frutefull trees loaded, as itt sunc[?] with very larg leaves, and larg pleasant frute like citterons, with red amongist itt, the beuty being very pleasant, and lovely. as alsoe how itt was placed by So pure, still ^& shady ^A river and how various this rock had presented itt selfe the night before, still defined to see fully, itt being as itt river in a shady place nott to be perfectly perceaved [÷] heere we see but throu a glasse darkly^** Quotation from 1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV

After this vast high rock had other trees, thick and close of

Small leaves, and so curious, as if itt had beene pure gom worke[?]^** 'Gum Work, is by Gumming of several colours of sleeven Silk together, which being dry, they cut into shapes of Leaves and Flowers, and so tie them up upon Wyers'. A Schoolmistress' task which she would perform with her scholars. Taken from EEBO 'THE THIRD BOOK OF THE ACADEMY OF ARMORY and BLAZON', CHAP. III., overspreding itt, from the top to the bottom like the side of a high hill, or mountaine, after tll[?]appiard Like pillowes of cloudes, of sea greene, in great heapes.

Friday the: 13

Itt appeared like a sea with waves, then like a still river, the same manner. After next evening, being the satturday; & Saboth day the 15. Itt appeared like a Larg champion country monday the 16 like a hilly country: and a brooke running between, two hills. Whene a rock, but not so pleasant, as that before, sometimes the[?] rock seemed to bee the back towards mee, and I was trobled: and; [÷] ⟨hen[?]⟩ itt turned the pleasant side to -wards mee, Tuesday the. 17. itt appeared very various like full of very small flowers some white some bleu Wednesday the 18th. Several flowers of greene and white and many greene and white Rushes, twisted with white ^as greene on the rock, Then many small flowers of white, and some of bleu, and pleasant coullered flowers grew up as one

looked on them. Folio 3r [top_centre] (3) stuck ^{then were} you againe, and imediately ^arose others in there roome scarsly to be diserneable what flowers they were by comeing upp so quick, and as one disappeared otherscame C continuewally full of variety of flowers and this rock stood still.

Thursday the 19 ^th

There was a thick body of darkness, or place of black which was before, a bright light that shined under the Darknes, and the sides, and lighted the rock, so the Rock looked transparent, with flowers of red and White no other couller, I asked why red and white onely and no other couller among them, so many flowers, itt was answered to show the purity of the saints when washed in the bloud of the Lambe

Friday the . 20

Still this thick body of darknes remained before the light, I desired[?] to have, got beyond the darknes but could not,

Satturday the.21.^th

The thick body of darknes came over me and I was got ^{beyond ye darkness} between the darknes and the light! Which I had much desired and there was[?] so pure a sky of all coullers, as if the rock had spred its transparent beuty over the heavens and earth, so that itt appeared a most beutifull landskip every where, as in a Globe then appeared the rock, I having ^afull sight of itt, by reason, of a pure light (but yett the back seemed to mee,) I said why must I bee att the back of itt: and not come before to see the treasures of pearls. and itt turned to mee where there was such treasures of pearle as cannot bea expressed, over the whole side of the rock goeing out of itt, here wee see but his back parte: But when wee come to see: eye to eye, to see him as hee is, and changed into his glory, being made like him Folio 3v [top_centre] (4) And I see my selfe ^{my spirit or angell} goe from me, as a pure body of orientall pearle, like all one pure orientall pearl itt seemed ^with such a shining beuty, but the back ^{of my} was [÷] ⟨which⟩ Angellonely towards mee.

22 June Saboth day

I see the rock so gloriously adorned with goodly pearle and precious stones, as itt was wonderfull to behould so that I might ghitt my sight with seeing, yett after that appeared something most rare for curiositie, Itt was flowers of pearle, and rich stones ^{÷⟨which⟩} grene in shapes of flowers, with the leaves of pearle grene in curious shapeslike a figures

monday the . 23 . of June

As I lay awake a bed (for so all hath appeared allthough the Ideas remained in the day ^after from the first to the last) This rock still appearing in his its full lustore and great riches, being loaded with many larger rich stones, and the light appeared very splendid afore itt, in flaming streames which greatly delighted mee this light continued, but the rock disappeared for some time, and there appeared an Allter, with a flaming hart upon itt, till itt becam a larg flame, as high as the Allter, and att some distance from this Allter, appeared a most beutifull arbour, of all pleasant flowers, transparent ^de[?] a great length, strate to bee seene att the far^thest endthe bottome as of grasse, And I looked into itt and went in seeing threu the flowers. The light ⟨that⟩ lighted itt ^was not between, but as threu variety of coullered pure grasse ^of transparent flowers. I wont have beene made transparent, and swallowed upp in them, Folio 4r [top_centre] (5th) ⟨(⟩ the beuty was so great) as I have don some other times when greatly delighted (as the rock) would have beene taken into itt and would sometimes goe and sitt in the hollow of the rock under the shaddow to content mee seeing I could not bee taken into itt, The allter I see flame severeall times as often as I looked towards itt, Then I looked for the rock and itt appeared againe and the Arbor appeared various in its flowers, to what itt had before, being larger and fewer greenes, more whitish great beuty and the skyes appeared like a beautifull Lan skipp I was held in this about an houre att least The first sight of the rock was in a shady place but itt assended still higher and higher, as the beuty did more fully appeare for above any before,

Wednesday the, 25. June

Still desrenig further to behould the glorious wonder of the rock, for if wee seek wee shall finde, Itt appeared with greater glory all over pearle, and a pure pleasant light, lighted itt, and came over the rock and tooke itt into the light, so the rock was become one with the light, then the light gave back to one side to shewe me that the rock was in the light and the rock appeared like one orian pearle, and then I understood the light and the rock was all one glory even the god of glory of great was the delight to have such a cleene sight of that rock: which is light and love; of the beuty of holiness, I would have been taken into itt, After the rock seemes to be several pearles united to the won rock as of one pearle. I asked how the rock which was but one orientall pearle, what shall I say, of itt, itt is beyond Expression, no coning can alter it, as St Ja[?]all said hee heard things nott fitt to be uttered, so ^{÷⟨÷this⟩} this glorious glory mee have nott conings fitted to expresse, I am lost to goe about to declare, or sett itt forth, if you understand what glory is, then may you give a gifte to this ravishing over powering ^** The scribe often misspells 'ing' as 'nig' splendednes, I here seate and expresse itt best by saying nothing, more, but glory glory. Folio 4v [top_centre] (6) And bee therewith silently transported with the rayes of its beuty. But to the question: how this rock of glory: being before but one pure pearle, how itt appeared like many united into one, itt was told mee the lord was that great pearle of price that as ^his pearles were many and yet united into that one ^great pearle, It shewed the unitie of the saints, when they come to that great pearle of price, and were made one with him they growing out of the won pearle, severally, every one founded and made one with the rock but each_{each one} through⟨were⟩ several pearles. Then I asked why the rock had appeared so various before itt came to that beuty of glory. Itt seeming to be as a grosse thick body att first appearance though beutified oppon itt. Itt was said to declare that the drossines^** 'drossy' meaning contains waste or is worthless. in saints, as carnall see then itt the first. And how they grow into this glory by degrees. And when come to this fullness of glory all glory⟨dros⟩ was don away,there were so clarified that They became like transparent with the rock,Then I desired to enter unto this glorious light, itt being then like a glory of light, but I was told this light must enter first unto mee to purifie and burne up all the drosse, for me to be purified, to enter into this pure light; then I desired ^with panted⟨ing⟩, and hungred & thirsted reathing forth, my whole desires and affections and as I panted itt came with such an overshadowing, penetrating way filling: and as I breathed forth my thirst[?] ernest request sute itt still breathed Folio 5r [top_centre] (7) in sweet fresh giles of the spirritt, penetrating mee, throughout, then I desired the saintes might feele the same I did and breathing out desires. I felt as if vertue went out to them, and I emtyed[?] But hastning to the fountaine where was enough to fill mee and others, for I had onely what I had retained, and wanted if breathed forth to others, but this can bee as little expressed as before I said of the rock; Butt itt was a sweet life ^love power and vertue, over powering and filling mee with joy delight and praise, and such as intimate familiaritie as if I might have and doe what I pleased conversing with god, as with ones intimate friends may more as with wons sefe

Thursday the 26 June

I see like a wall of stones of gold in great buty, often presenting it selfe, and having the Idea of the rock in my mind. I desired to understand why a rock had beene so long represented to mee and so various the meditations were such as these, first why a rock to deckare itt was a foundation as whichcannot be shaken, secondly: Itt being placed in a shady place and by a river, sheweth that refreshing shelters in the lord Jesus in the time of Scorching temptation. Thirdly the pleasant greenes being several, and after Trees loaded with frute, and after variety of flowers the fullness of delight, may bee aluded to the spows[?] in the canticles I sett under his shadow with great delight and his frute was sweet to my tast fourthly, then a rock denotes securitie for sume tims itt appeared hollow where I did and might sitt in the hollow and be his and safe in times of great danger fifthly then a rock is unniversalle, so that moved nott though the heavens and the earth passed swiftly away Sixly, the work did Vowsally[?] Stand with one side towards me, and sometimes the back to declare wee Folio 5v [top_centre] 8 wee cannot see but in part and understand but in part tie glorified, then shall see him as hee is (we see) seventhly and lastly, the great treasures of pearle on the rock, to show the riches and treasures in god, and that hee is not onely so in himself, but communicates of himself to us, was declared in my seeing my self goe from mee as a pure body of one orientall pearle being made partakers of his devine nature as of the nature of the rock having many pearles ^also growing out of this body of one pearle, as the rock had.

Friday the 27th

There was continued that wall of stones of gold but much hyer, not to be clymed by sence, I looked upon it as the wall of the new Jerusalem, it was very glorious

Satturday the 28.

This golden wall I was rased to looke over itt and I see a pure body of bright shig shinny gold, And this did often present itt selfe

Saboth day the 29

This golden wall or wall of gold I could well see over itt, and see the glory of that person like bright shining gold, and after a pleasant light very delighting I see atour meting when ^we mett together after this golden ^wall seemed to compos there courts. The first was the largest, the second lesser, the third was like a court ravered ^the & filled with the glory of the lord. Like a glorious exceeding beutifull light,

Monday the 30. June

This glorious light still continueing (and greatly delighted mee,) placed in the midest of a golden porch being filled with the glory of the lord: after appeared a curious cabenett like olive wood, inlade curiously in cut flowers, soone after appeared a stone buildinge Folio 6r [top_centre] 9 of the couller of olive wood cut into carved worke I was very neere itt, my eie neere touching itt to diserne itt exactly to be of stone,

Tuesday the first of July

This building curiously cut, still presented, and like fouer pinacles at each couer[?] one, I said is this the tempell of the lord as shalle with men, and is becom to tabernacle with us, But could nott understand itt, And itt was decended to a lazy c^hampian, green plesant place. These sweet sights and visions declared god is coming to us, and is in spirritt with us by giving Such delights to the spirit ^{eye of} faith, if wee presse after itt, this strenghend ^me to beg of god to give mee the spirritt of prayer (and as christ when on the earth Said to the deafe and dumbe bee opened) and take my tounge and loope itt and open my blue eyes and I there was asn immediate answere, with a great quickening and refreshing, and ernest prayer with aflurance[?], that as hee did then lett mee feele his power, hee would answere mee, and soone after going to sleepe itt ben[?] after I was a bed I dreamed of much inlargement in prayer, though some I thought came in yet I went on not the least discomposed, I wante thy time of Lord being the best,

Wensday the2 July

Being very desirous further to behold this curious building and it appeared at a great distance and not soe curiously carved as before and went leisurely down at one end as if it went to some^that part of the globe ^which is against our feet I said what is it gone to east india of often thought if this building or temple whether it went desireing to understand it but could _not Folio 6v [top_centre] 10 (soe I waited and after there was a most glorious beu -tifull light displaying it self variously to great delight for some considerable time together after[?] there was a high hill of firr trees all yong and about a foot high, then appeared in place of the firr trees cypress trees very thick like a grove with a goeing into it, but I could not see into it it, it was soe thick and shady

Wesday yͤ. 9. July

Uppon Serious meditation I finde the great and last ^static[?] bee swallowed upp of life is^viz the mortall sences to be swallowed up of immortallity. which wisdome doth by oppening her devine treasures and riches and beauty of holines, to one invisible sences, with various delights. which far surmonts Surmounts all outness[?] such as eie hath not seene, nor eare heard; and to our feeling; the over powering, overshaddowing, breathings of the spirritt, and tasting of joyes, to come, feeding on christ. wee had need keepe a strict watch against the least motion ^sensitive of life; Soone after these thoughts, wee mett together, to waite [?] on the lord, to keep that love fire warm as^which will, put out all earthly affections as the Sun puts out yͤ fire, or darkn^eses a candle: I saw the most beautifull shady blews, like heaps, of clouds[?] & white among them, or a light as^which reflected with[?] such an unexpressable beuty, as sensetive colours[?] are not to be compared to it with a bright light by it, the Idea remained very pleasant Folio fol10r [top_centre] 17 [Note:] 10 &about 2 howrs after seeing it very clear as at the first, & the bright light, by it (as a white cloud) went leisurely over these beautifull pillars of blew clouds, & from whence this light cloud came arose a glorious sun, as if it had, by its arising dispersed, the white cloud & all became clear & I see the sun as it arose as^till it came to a pretty highth, there was some little fears in me at yͤ first arising of this sun; when this Sun arise in its strength it will make all clouds of fearful nature to dissappear, & from our faintings, will us up rear for perfect love is without fear; ^** Bible reference to 1 John 4:18. yeit^sonn, had a circle round the edges of pure streames of golf, & many people flocking to it eag =erly, like very fine gravel, the people ran as if they had a desire to worship it. so had I, being moved thereunto, but did not, after (where this gold earth was) there appeared such a glo =rious light many hundred times larger then the sun before. And soe shined that it^{the son}comparedto it^{this light} was but like the smallest candle compaerd with it^{ye son} for light or largeness, I said what is this great light, it can =not be the reflection of this sun as^thatis newly risen for it so far excells it that by its, reflection & beauty darkness it surely it can be no less then yͤ reflection of that glory of glorys as is above; & I saw soe glorious transparent light hang Folio 10v [top_centre] 18 over itt hovering in the aire like a globe of light which^whose reflection this great light was.

Thursday. 10. July

Being in meditation of that sun & the beauty of it & contemplating of the brightness of the fathers glory which was soe transparent, beholdding it with delight & filled with joy; God is all glorious ^look yͤ right hand look, or on yͤ left, even not able to contain it, nor express it, but causeth a holy impatience to have[?] mortall swallowed up of immortalitie (that I might not, be thus straitned) and how amI straitned? thus to be cabined up in flesh, and not in the glorious[?] liberty of the sones of God. but I may say, & truly & as Christ said ^{so I may truly say} I have a baptisme of the holy-ghost as with fire to be baptized with, to purge away all dross, selfe & sin, & how am I straitned till it come. O I am even forced to say, turn away thy eye, for thou hast ravished me. O when shall I be able to contain, what thou, wilt give how long Lord. holy & true. wee can take in but little of glory. here, wee can hold but little of this new wine by reason of our old vessells of flesh but yet a little while he ^will come, and, wee shall enter into glory, till then wee groan within our selves, with strong cries, for the redemption of the body.

Monday July the 14th

I saw this porch with the entrance to itt like an Arber very longe, and att the farthest and there poured downe great heaps of gold pebbels & being very exact to see what was done with them they were all laid as the pavement of this beautiful Folio 12v [top_centre] 22 arbour far surmounting all the riches of this world.

Tuesday yͤ: 8th August. 1679.

I see by the eye of faith a pleasant prospect of feilds, [top_centre] 30 some of gold, some silver, with a reflection of a pure light As caused them to looke very beautifull, to an exceeding brightness and glory, till att lenght they might bee seene throw, and looked like transparant gold and Silver And after Some time became all light. By reason of the bright light as shine and^{one one}of itt, turning itt into itts owne nature, As itt is written, wee shall see him as he is, and bee made like him. This pleasant and large light remained a considerable time, and I was moved with to pray and praise god: that I might bee pure throughout, And in meditation, thought what was itt that I did desire, I considered, I had not lately seene Jesus Christ , in his glorified fevine humanity: as a christian of my aquanitance of late hath severall times. And as itt were walked, and talked, with him, The Lord spake to mee, and said. Why if I should, It would bee but a representation of of Christ without you. And itt must be christ within you (That is yett more) and more that you have, my flameing love which is christ. that made^kes your soule, burne as in flames of love towards mee, And I was greatly raised, in comfort and joy with this gratious answere, And desired still more of god, more fully to knowe his love, which passeth knowledge And was allsoe desirous, to beg mercie for some, in the family where I was well knowing, as gods usuall way is to answere what he causeth mee o beg (when thus in comunion with him) And going about, to seven, my evening request the night before which was in a great measure answered as by a faith ^rising which was thus. That as my friend was his, he would I believe, give her some more then ordinary testimony, as some had had though, but, in degrees, And as I was going to pray for the family, That god would keepe them Folio 30v [top_centre] 57 ffrom the evell they groned under, not to be taken out of the world, but to be kept, from those deadning as they were exposed to by some amonge them, And as praid, There came a word with power, pray for him who is the outward cause of their gronnings, and itt was soe powerfull, that I was contented to pray for none ^els then; neither small not great but he onely, coming out, lord take hold of him, lord take hold of him, thus three times god: And this is thy day when thou wilt shew thy wonders, Thou hast promised before a people travell they shall bring forth, And a nation shalle bee borne in one day, oh lett itt bee soe in him, even before he travell with desire, oh doe then persuade him over power him and lett all his nations be borne in one day all his will and affections he brought into thy selfe, That hee amy be willing in the day of thy power

After I see like pleasant greene feilds, then a light came like a sheet of light, And lay downe on the feilds, And some time after A sunn appeared, uppon the midle of this light ⟨&⟩ surkeled rounf the edges with golden streamed And after a beautifull Rose, within this sunn and a worde spake to mee, I am the Rose of Sharon, and th lily in the valy, Thus itt appeared for some time: then I thought of my former request, and what might be my duty, If I should speake itt would but cause the waves of god to be evell spoken of and a disturbance to such an inward peace, as was found desireable, in me Folio 31r [top_centre] 58 And immediately, I was as in and eie, Surkered round abou me, with a surkle of devine power, (I was as standing in itt) and ^it bid ^me not feare, if I should be shot att with bulletts, of reproch, for the waies of god ^thay should not hurt mee, But should rebonde back againe to him, And bee as Darts, his one words And wound his concience, for speaking evell of the waies of god, even of god, I send lord what am I as moses said, of a stammering coming. Indeed itt is not I, for I thought not (then) to have prayed for him, till I was commanded, and the words that spoken in mee, coming immediately with such a power as^that I could not say any thing else which did cleenely, to me declare, itt was thy will Therefore need not feare the answere, wee need not question gods heareing that prayer, which hee wills us to pray. 1.John.5.15.16. And this is our confidence wee have in him, That if wee aske any thing according to his will hee heareth us And if wee knowe that he heare us, whatsoever wee aske, wee know that wee have have the petition that wee desire of him, I thought I was a very dull instrument , Itt was said, what if a knife have noe haft nor point, and rusty with noe edge but dull, (And such a knife I thought I see) A skillful hand with a strong power, from one hight can direct itt to pricke to the hart, A wound made by a bad rusty weapon shewes more of the kill of the hand of god as ⟨as⟩guides itt, and is not esily cured How did Gods power appeare when Peter preached they were pricked to the hart Folio 31v [top_centre] 59⟨23 Nombers 23 vers wos brought to me⟩ came to confirne this my faith, according to this time, itt shallbe said what hath god wrought

Satturday August 9th

The Rose of Sharon, as was seene yesterday morning declared the Trinitie as hee^that is in all thinge, The white cloud the further ^& the son uppon itt, the father and the son, the Rose was the manifest long as⟨which⟩is in the trinity) I call to mind a Thistell U saw in vission some nights agoe, but forgott to noate itt downe, Itt grew in a valey, itt opened and was full of a small light and shined bright. Itt was said to mee, see how this thistle shines in the shade, light shines best and brightest when in a valley of humility, And the thistell continued burning till noe more of the pricking nature remained But became a small flaming light, This did cause, the love of god, to shine brighter in our harts, And burne upp all our prickly drossy nature, By itt flaming light Till, called in all as^that is contrary to his will, till yͤ mortall be swallowed upp of immortallitie

Itt hath beene much uppon my thoughts of a greene feild, I saw alsoe my vission long synce with many fflynts sored all over itt ^{as I did not mind} And it often presented to mee ^sence till I inquired what itt ment, Itt was told mee the feild was the world. The fflynts the people in itt, as wee were ready to thinke Folio 32r [top_centre] 60 of of noe use but to bee, gathered upp and throwne ⟨on ye rod⟩away But of fflynts ^men make pure glasse when burnt in the fire, soe those men in the world as wee little regard. God can purifie them by his spiritt which is as refiners fire And they may become Christalyne bodies before the lord, oh lord take away our drosse, that wee may be pure in thy sight,

Saboth day yͤ 10 August

I saw a pleasant prospect with light and delight

monday the 11 August

I saw much pleasant light, and a Sapher stone given mee ^{it wos very} larg and a beautifull Bleue Att night I saw a pleasant skey, and light, & feilds The feilds seemed of mixed silver and gold after became all light, ^{there was} a friend of mybe comeing towards the light, Then feilds againe all very rich gold, and a pleasant skye, Then a light, And the third time, the feild was like rape wheate of gold, Then became all light and like an arch or frame for an arbour, and by itt a silver headpeece gilded, and a white cloud lay on the ground, being full of the glory of god, as that cloud did declare

And ^ir having been often on my spiritts with great desire, to see the patriarks and prophetts And having then desired itt, I saw first a fewe in Glorious Garbe, most of white and some red in itt, sitting together , and turned that I might see them; But knew them nott But I praied that I might And the first I knew was the Apostle Paull, ye stood upp and turned to mee After, many more glorious Saints, but I knew my not Folio 32v [top_centre] 61 And by this glorious light where the Saints was as in a cloud, There was A Candele lit under by itt, I said this light needs no candle, And the glory was, all darkned by a thick darknes, as came betweene, but I praied to the lord, and after some time itt returned more pleasant, And I need ⟨yͤ patraks⟩ Abreaham & Isaac and Jacob And John the devine And ^St Stephen by ^St Paull with many other saintes came a cloud of devine glory, and decended To shew, the union, and communion, god has and the glorified Saints together, And some of them, when they Saw the cloud of light come, rose up and mett itt, and itt them, The cloud entered in ^them and filled, them and they entering into ⟨ye⟩ cloud with great delight, such was their union I desired to have this cloud yt filled them, and compassed them, to come over mee, and itt did which was much to my incoragement, I prayed for the Spirit of prayer And I was told Sad[?]my ⟨yu⟩have itt, for itt is faith which is the spiritt of prayer, faith is omnipotent, yt comes from god and goes to god for what ever itt wants and requires ^{going to} for whatever ^{yu have} desired beleiving, ⟨yu have⟩ received itt, Which ^answer afforded great comfort, and praise, And this object did greatly delight mee The behoulding of the Saints which I had much and often desired, adn they continued in this cloud of love and glory, oft I might see them as often as I desired, and a cloud often decending, and assending by them, And where, I had seene the light, and feilds of gold, there was like and Arbour Folio 33r [top_centre] 62 of Greenes, the fruit was with great exatnes And beautifull greenes beyond expression plated in much light, by itt trees of the same And after defered itt selfe, in the most beautifuk Landskipp, or Globe, which was exceednig delightfull

Tuesday the 12 August

The Idea remained much uppon mee this day that what ever I did still I saw the glorified saints: By which I did thinke I might see the same vission att night, and something fuller declared, And as the first I saw the night before as to know, was the apostle Paul: soe now ⟨St⟩ Paul ^stud up lookening on mee, hee seemed to bee a small and spare man, not very small ⟨St⟩, Steephen satt next to him, looking one, on & ^yeother with great love, ^St Steephen but a low man Having for a long time, and often desired to see the Patriarkes, and Apostles, and prophets Itt did so rejoyce me, And ye beholding them as long as I would, and with what exactnes I desired, so that I might have beene able to have given an accompt of every feature in their face, As to the first, Paull was as is expressed before, nott big not tall but a spare man, thyn vissage, dark eies, flayin hare, light browne. ^St Stephen darke eie darker ⟨Brone⟩ hare curling, round vissage, Their faces shined, looking beautifull, Them mext I observed was Abraham Isaac and Jacob, as stood by themselves were plainer to seem, which I had pleaded often to see them, and now I did And Moses and Aron Stood a little further by themselves: Abraham was a large tall man, long vissage, darke eies darke browne haire Folio 33v [top_centre] 63⟨tall⟩ Isack was like him, but not so nor bigg though a tall man, flaynig browne heire, Abraham looks the older but neither looked old: Jacob looked young as ^also A short fatt man of a middleing stature fatt round vissage, light haire, gray eies, Theire was not an old man, nor a child, among them Moses was as tall, or taler then Abraham, but a little fuller sett, and fuller face: Aron a lesser man Sharper countenance: I desired to see Adam and Eve, They were both together: their faces very beautifull and shineing. Eve round vissag, Adam long^er vissage middle stature Then I desired to see Jeremiah: as^who was sanctified from the wombe, he was a comly person in face and in Shape, pritty full make, lightish browne heire, Then I desired to see Esayath the prophitt, as itt was Said was Sawne a Sunder with a wooden saw, he had a redish browne haire ^{buddy comfort}⟨Then⟩⟨then⟩ I see John the devine haveing a sweet countenance, They weare in the glory of god as in a cloud, yt greatly ravished me, that you was pleased to condicend, to answere me that I might see, his glory in his Saints, even those, Patriarks, and Prophetts, and Apostles. And after I saw a friend of myne yt is havinge[?] as I desired to see their And shee looked very earnestly on the glorified persons of the Saints, and clymed up to god hier: and assended to a great height, and by degrees was curved above, the Saints: and over them to the highest glory, till out of sight, and there remained for some time; after a cloud came downe, and went over the saints: and an -other went to her my friend and shee went downe well satisfied: But much was I inlarged Folio 34r [top_centre] 64 to blesse god, for this favor whiest this state I could say with the apostle Paull, even now, (whilst in the body) that now I was come to mount Syon the citty of the living god: to an innumerable company of Saints: the spirrits of mist even made perfitt, which did greatly raise me to thankfullnes, even beyond expression, After I desired to see my father and mother Then I desired to see a sister, y^t dyed above tenty years agoe, All of them haveing been long dead I had neere forgott ^them And I saw them that they were so very like them, that I can better remember them now, then before; After I saw my sister^{som others as I well knew}( oh this to walke with god, as answeres, and walkest^will as wee will, our will, being his: not my will, but thyne bee as oh god, is all my desire

Wesday 13 August

It being much uppon my thoughts the state of absence from our blessed house ^{& of that state which wos} to be allwaies pillars in his house temple, never to goe out, Revelations oh! the longing to bee att rest, Allwaies to behold his glory: no more to see through a glasse darkly, as threw a lattis, but face to face, to see him as hee is, even our lord, our head, and to be made like him, This is ^This the transforming change: my soule longs for, when, oh! when, shall itt once bee, And I saw a light cloud, and before itt a gold edge, which went in and out as a border, And an arch by itt in the cloud, and like of the cloud, after there was like a ladder, itt reached to a great height The ladder seemed all like a cloudL And att the topp of the ladder, was like the Turrett of some house and a Dyall, The hand stood abot 10. a clock. and I was instructed (and allsoe very Folio 34v [top_right] 65 desirous) to observe the hand moveing: and itt went till itt came to 12. a. clocke: and them like a Sunn diall, went of this diall, or by itt, and desended and came under a cloud: and came by mee and there was figures written, but could not deserne what itt was, onely that I supposed itt was a Sunn diall, And there was writt on itt in my owne hand perceverance, and a white cloud by itt writt in great ⟨letters⟩ letters (god helpe) Thise I looked uppon as some answere to my former desires, to be in a state ^offixation, and for comfort our blessed lord will, well, observe itt, lett us perseiv ⟨-ver⟩by the help of god and watch the diall of our owne hearts: and when itt is high noone, when inheritance, wee shall enter uppon the possession the diall stood after att a: 11: a clock shewing that itt was nott long, Butt hee as^who shall come will come, and will not carry.

Thursday the: 14: August

I saw likw two cristall⟨christall⟩ pillars, yet bore upp the cloudy porch, and in deep consideration how hard it was to be content to stay in mesheck , and to dwell in the tents of Kedar yet alsoe for my comfort staied my selfe, that the patriarks, and prophetts and apostles, now glorified, was wonce, as wee are And could I, but discourse with Abraham, as^who left his fathers house, and kindred, to goe to a land hee knew not yet now he would say heaven has made, abundant amends for all his travells A Glorious glory who can expresse what itt is Folio 35r [top_right] 66 To be in life everlasting,to bee ever in light life ioy and blisse, the Sence can seth a holy impatience, yea longing to posess, I ^even am forced 35 to say, oh that I had the winges of the morning that I might fly away and bee att rest, I grone for the redemption of the body, not doe much to bee unclo^athed, but to bee clo^athed upon, were itt not for the enrest desire, and assurance of hope to be clo^athed uppon, with the lord Jesus, wee could not thus grone

Ffriday the 15 August

I see this cloudy arch againe, and ^it went as itt were under a cloude, till itt came by the Diall, by the Turrett Towards evening having a sweet flaming influence, of devine power, itt much refreshed and comforted mee, to meditate of gods love, And was much taken upp, with delight and praise

Satturday the 16th of August

In the morning, I awaked, with so sweete & refreshing flames, burning uppon the altar of my affections, that the efforts of itt, was, ^{such as even} to have melted me in teares, that the love of god was shed, thus abro^ade in my hart

Sabath day the 17th August

I see like a darke dore come by degrees and passed mee, and there lay a large White cloud on the ground, and there came a cloud of as^from the cloud and passed mee, then another cloud arose and passed mee, soe three times, And after I see an Alter and like some body bound and laid on itt, I thought of Abraham, offering Isacc Thus are wee t offer upp all our wills on the Alter of gods will, to satisfie them, And I, waited, to see the fire come downe, to burne Folio 35v 67 the sacrifi^ce, and often looked, but the sacrifice lay still, being dead, I said, now will come the sacrifising knife, and it was said, what need when itt is dead already, hee needed, not, his leggs to be broken, as^who was dead before, aluding to christ, I thought sure there would be fire to consume itt, Itt was said (no itt may ^not be not) there was no need, of the knife before, being dead, and alsoe further said ^{to me} nay when wee have given upp our wills, laying itt uppon the Allter wee may haave, the sacrifice againe As Abraham when in his will, had offered upp his Isaac he had him againe, soe I may you have the sacrifice againe, And I looked with hope for itts being given mee againe, for it began to move one ye Altar

Tuesday the 19. August

As I was much in begining unity amongst yͤ Saints That all differences might bee done away: And that wee might love as brethren, as children, of the same promisses, as heres of the same glorious he^aven all one father, one redemer, one comforter

Wednesday the 20th of August

collecting what was putt uppon mee, As in petition for one in the family, and to continue my request I was much concerned, as severall times synce not onely for him, but the rest, And att this time was much comforted and refreshed, as you would in his time, appeare, being the best; That place in the Psalm 97:11 Light is sowne for the righteous, And gladnes for the upwright in hart; comfort is not reaped before itt bee sown, wait for itt,

ThurTuesday^Thursday yͤ 21 August

I see a most pleasant light cloud which greatly refreshed mee, Itt being noe lesse then the glory of god, soul and spiritt, as fulleth all thinges in all, who is, by us, and filleth us, with his presence And there was a goldren Sirkle^circle (like streames in the midest of this light cloud) shew^ing to me the golden oyle of the spirritt, which comes from christ which is the h^eart, of the father, Thus by faith wee may see him, as^who is trinity, in unity, and unity in trinity, of who is able to comprehend itt but but, by his, thus manifesting, himselfe to us and in us, which will, cause, us, to breake forth, oh how wonderfull art thou, oh lord, when I goe to declare the love of god (As in thoughts, to admire him, or indevoring, to expresse, what wee cannot & his love passeth knowledg). Itt causeth even att this time, such a flame of love, noe waters can quench love, The teares of godly joy is like oyle; to make itt burne, the brighter

Ffriday 22th August

^colored Being often refreshed, with the glory of god, and fresh Ideas of his presence and remembrance of his glorifyed divine humanity: I was in a deepe apprehenson, of god the fathers, glory, and Jesus christ the flaming h^eart of god Which is his love, breathed unto us (the breath of life) by his Spirritt, here is the Trinity: and what a flame of love itt kindleth in our soules: as David said Whilest I was missing the fier burned, having had a Thursting, even fainting, to bee taken upp to the mount, even to be filled with the fulnes of him yt filleth all in all Folio 36v ffor the redemption of the body: no longer to bee in a tate of absence, and as I was in a holy impatience to take my flight into glory noe more to be united to my flesh nor any longer but desirous to fly away and bee att rest. But the desires being so e^arnest, was ^{stayrd &} att length contented with his vissitts here, his devine imbraces, as have had, though must come back againe, ont of them, & converse belowe, And I felt such and an overshadowing mee compassing mee as in a bed of love, with such life love, vertue power that words nor imaginations cannot reach itt Itt was an inward injoyment, and swallowing upp the whole inward man, and even the outward That I felt the highest sweetnes goodness love drawing out all my inward facultiys uppon this blessed obiect, Jesus Christ, the Son of god even god himselfe, the eternall trinity compassing mee with his loves, whome I felt defuse his life quite through mee, with the Idea of his glorified person, That I then thought I could desire no more, The ravishing ioys were soe great being brought as unto his banquesting house house and his banner over mee was loves: Itt was feeding on christ, drinking his bloud, Itt was no lesse then the intimate deare love and conjugall affection, he sheweth to us his spouse A being a betrothing to him in an eternall union and marriage (which I att that time said so that this was, being married to christ) The rapture of Joy my soule was then in exceeding my selfe, But oh how shall I have words to expresse, the delight and complacency that the glory of god did seeme to mee take in mee? which farr exceeded my ioy Folio 37r 33 ffor mine was but raised to see and feele his ioy his seemed the ioy of a Bridegroome over his beloved delightfull Bride, who can declare his loves in the plurall cens^sense, wee grone and long and well wee may To behould, and bee made one with him, But oh! how ⟨how,⟩ doth he long to declare himselfe, and communicate to us, hath beene declared, even now by answering my bre^athing in such full, satisfaction as att this time. But I must goe, back to that as^which hath stayed mee often, It is our unfittness as^which hinders our fruition of this most sweete supersensuall^{supersensuall} blisee which the h^eart of god, which is christ is full of, And wee shall feele more and more as wee are purified for itt,

23 August Satturday

In the morning I awaked with such great refreshment and chering in a flame of love on my heart with fresh divine imbraces, as doth very much quiet and stay my longing, hee having stayed mee as with flaggons: and comforted mee with appeals^apees, soe that in the strength thereof I can now rejoyce ffor while I feele this his inward life flameing in mee, Itt doth soe greatly rejoice mee, That nothing in the world can ever bee compared to itt Itt is a feeling life, a vitall receiving of the love of god, whereby the very outward man is strengthend Itt is like marrow, to the mones, like strong wine The water of life, which is as a spring, and floweth rivers, of liveing water, oh that I were drunke with thy loves as will new wine, never: never: oh! never to regard any thing in the world, even soe to have mortall swallowed upp of immortalitity, till wee come to our fixation state, noe more to bee cloged, nor incabined and flesh caged in flesh But come to the blessed and joyfull liberty of the sonnes of god, noe more then, noe more teares nor sithing, But praise and hallalujahhalalujah Folio 37v oh happiy thrice happy state, Itts but a little longer stay, some graces to be further strengthened And some corruptions to be conquered, and itt my bee some worke to bee done for others Pardon to bee begged: and mercy to be obtained for others, That those as^that are a far of may, Bee made nye by the bloud of the Lambe. And in this great rapture, I was much inlarged that others might feel what I then has felt State of concentrating nature: Att night I found some sweete breathings: but many stray interuptions: and Ideas cast in by the enimy of our soules which att present I did nott understand now was trobled, by his suttlety^subtlety: But our wife god will teach us to understand the severall wifes of the Divill

Sab^bath day 24 August

Being eare wittness of the swearing and drunkenness of some much it was uppon my Soule to itts exceeding greate tro^uble how the lord is dishonoured his name prophaned, when our holy and glorious god hath said hee will nott hould them guiltless as^that taketh his name in vaine, And very much in begging pardon, and coneversion, nay a thorow work of conversion, on such of them as were knowne to mee, and for the unknowne allsoe, That god might have the glory: That the whole world may be filled with the glory of god.

Monday the 25 August

Att night being in meditation of the love of god and desire to lye in his bosome in his heart the flaming heart of his love and there to be swallowed upp in the flames of love Itt afo aforderd mee great delight, apprehending I was Folio 38r there, and soone after I see a light like a cloud with one sitting on itt with his feete on the earth And sometimes itt looked like a crucifix^{one naled to a crosse} after like a shady fountane, beneath this cloud of light was a darkness, and under the darkness a bright light and this darkness covered all that light But I being very desirious to behould the light, The darkness dissapeared and all seemed to bee a white cloud, as^that looked very pleasantly I would have walked in that light, But there appeared a dark doore, and there rushed forth one in figure like a man; But like a monster and soe great was the strike, and interuption betwixt light and darkness, good and evill as itt did greatly disturbe and discompose mee, after a great place of greeness, as⟨which⟩ compassed all the light like an innumerable ^company of very small firr trees about 4 and 6 inches high variously they appeared and after such strange sights. But after a pleasant light cloud as ⁱⁿcompassed mee, and remained: which caused great delight by meanes of the beauty⟨beauty⟩

Tuesday yͤ 26 August

Thinking of the great contest with sathan and his mighty powers, I called to mind of michaell, and his angells, fighting with the Divell, and his angells, how that these fights & disturbances was a perect fighting, against the appearing of the glory of god and his beuty^beauty like a continuall combate: But light gott the victory and remained And this morning I saw the light cloud as I had seene the night before, and a fountaine before itt, like as of a cloud, and under itt a pleasant greene place like young grasse Then a bright light flameing and sparkeling Folio 38v with brightness. Then like great ^thick trees, and a pure white light, like a globe, being refreshed with this sight, and funding^finding noe interuption at had had the night before, but I found great delight as⟨wch⟩ caused blessing and praising of god deserving allsoe that I might, bee free from those frights. But as David which desired he might allwaies be in the light of his countienance and I saw the glory of god shine uppon David which glory I desired might shine allways uppon mee, by the influencee of his beames of glory shineing on mee, That I might appeare beutifull^beautifull in his sight, and in the sight of men, dooing good from his influences remaining on me, And att night I see a white cloud arise and come towards mee, and assended to a very great and exceeding height, till att length tall it came to the eie of eternity and there was taken into the glorys of great brightness and after uppon this bright glory a thinn cloud appeared: and uppon that a sunn surkled^circled round with golden streames, and within itt a large and beutifull flower with divers leaves much like a d^oubles marigold; But as large as that Sum, and when I had beheld itt a considerable while, it descended and went to mount syon, and there continued

Wednesday 27 August

In the morning meditiating of the glory of god the father and sonne, as the apostle Stephen saw itt, lookening steadfastly unto heaven he saw the heavens oppen, and the glory, of god and Jesus standing on the right hand of god And I saw a pleasant white cloud and a doore oppen: and a smoake like a white cloud Folio 39r came forth, being filled with the glory of god, The representation remained, before mee most of the day after. After att night I see my selfe, my Angell walke about, and sett downe by me

Thursday the 28 August

⟨This morning⟩ saw my Angell farr more plainer, with great observation walking to, and fro, to bee well and plain⟨ly⟩ Seene And the light cloud againe very pleasant, and the doore, ^{that I saw the night before} and great delight withⁱⁿ the coming forth of his power communication of the love of god: which is noe lesse then the beames, and goings forth of his power, to fill and transport us: nay even to transmute us, and take us upp into his glorious glory

Ffriday the 29th August

Sweet refreshing and inlargements in the love of god, through christ, with great inioyments, as wee are made able to receive, After there appeared a white cloud with Severall partitions, like as parted with Banisters, passing a longe: and goinge downe att one end, after this there passed such a glory light like severall clouds passing for some time, after the other, shewing his glory passing by, his dark parts, his face wee cannot see being as yett nott capable to bare^bear much

Satturday the 30 August

Being desirous for a more ^full pouring out of his spirrit and praying that hee would touch my tong^tongue my lipps with with a cole from his allter, that I might speake his praise, and bring greater glory to his name, he knowing itt had beene my desire, many yeares ever synce I knew what to desire, that I might attaine to as much, grace Folio 39v As the soule was capable of here, nether could I tell how to bee content to see others doe more good, then I thought I did. yett Lord I am in thy will, It itt is thy will Byt is nott thy will bee done; But as our lord, Said to mary your time is allwaies ready: But my time, is nott come, so itt was said to me, Soone after I see a beautyfull appearance of some cristall curiously cutt but not to bee planely discerned by reason of great interuption with^of the erning of our soules, as^who is dilligent to take our crowne from us, It nott (as hee cannott) yett will give all the distubance hee can: This curious cutt christall seemed to bee like a larg crowne, with many small things in itt like us; crowned, which did declare to mee as⟨that⟩ christ is our crowne of glory, By which wee receive our dignitie and honour, our crowne as the reflect act from his: But great was the strife of Sathan that itt might nott bee seene att last itt disapeared: and by itt was a pure pleasant waved small light, like bright fizy glasse, and by itt a Garland, Some fair frut⟨fruit⟩ on the topp of itt, And about itt all flowers in the greatest curiositie, very small flowers shining like gome worke or collored glasse our^or bright stones, of exceeding beauty, and as I was considering on itt, Itt was Said the small Bright light is the marke, The Goldm which wee must keepe in our eye, And if wee conquor ^andcome to the end, wee shall have yͤ Garland and att some distance many white clouds very beautifull, like heapes of cloudes and these heapes of clouds went into the forme of a building and a doore oppen in itt, and itt was said I am the doore.

Sab^bath day yͤ 31 August 1679

Severall were the meditations and Supplications of my soule, yett all the resolveing, wuth an intire resignation, of all to his will, nott onely in outward worldly concernes, But in the guises of the holy) ghost (rather then be exalted above measure, Allthough itt is the great desire of my soule (with submission to him allwaies to bee found in his will), To have continued visitts from god, fresh and daly, nay many times a day to have renewed union with him, and vissions of his glory, walking in the light of his countenance, till I come to him, who is the ioy and reioyceing of my soule were wee not found in the will of god, and in the communication of god. wee could nott bee able to beare our state of absence, But the refreshments my soule and whole inward and outward doth sometimes injoy is soe exceeding, even nott fitt to bee uttered, if I could, they would by noe meanes bee believed: But by such as has realised them, and they know they are better fest[?] then then expressed: And I saw a white cloud and uppon it an hour^hour glasse with some Sandes in itt, Itt declared to mee itt was but waiting till a few sands more were run and then I should bee in Parradice, And I saw most pleasant pure light, and very beautifull greenness in beauty beyond expression, the light being so pure, white with darke greeness and then all over greenness, like a pleasant Bower as sheltered mee and againe. that pure milke white light, and greenees a considerable while Here begineth September appearing

Monday the first of September 1679

Oh! the tender love and delight god takes in shewing us his glory, when I mention delight calling to mind the 22 August: Itt doth soe transport mee that I am nott able to beare itt Folio 40v what a delight and rejoicing, was then declared lep^leaping and skipping as itt were over all difficulities mot being dismaid att one fraile flesh and humaine frailetyes. But haveing greate refreshments, and communion and intimate familliarity as a child hath with and indulgent father, when gained uppon his affections & redimes[?] to grant what itt desires and willeth, such and with exceeding was this freedome, of asking and beleeving and a feeling the request supplyed; And then I saw a white cloud and by itt many fortified Saints in Mount Syon, and an angell a cherubim with two large golden winges, and after it were covered with a bright cloud of glory, Thus shewing his favours as a pledg of glory: as far as wee are able to receive: ffor indeed I had this day even even: more then I could containe But yett itt admitts of longing to bee fitted for what wee might receive, and declares gods children and will nott over charge us, although his bowells ernes^yearns above what wee are able to receive ffor wee are as little able to beare his high illuminating consolations, as hs with runnings which hath beene experimented, But oh! eternity will be a fitt spare ⟨sphere⟩to praise him in: and wee fitted for itt; And when I am forced to a sylent admiration not knowing how to conceive what I feele makes mee thinke, that there will be sometimes even ⟨evin⟩Sylence in heaven, To lye downe and throw our crownes att his feete with admiration; sure I am itt is soe now not being able to apprehend, that love as^which has so loved us to make us his sonnes,

Tuesday yͤ 2 September

Oh! the flames of thy love refreshing ^beames being from thy selfe: you thy delighting in us, by expressing itt in such and extroadinary way: nay when wee for a while, nott willingly but by constraint, are forced to converse with relative concernes Hee seemes to reioyce att our retireing to him As one doth when there beloved freind, hath been a while absent, as with greater ioy: oh! how great is his love and what may itt bee compassed to even as of a mighty monark should court and inde^avour to alure a poore contemptable person for to be espoused to him, what astonishing would itt cause nott knowing how to beleive itt was possible for such a mighty prince to delight in them now there is an infinite greater disparitie between strength and infinitie⟨creator & creature⟩ betwixt us and the great lord of lords and king of kings, such as these were my contemplations, And I saw a light and a tree, the tree, passed by the light cloud with its back towards towards mee and I desired to see the other side and itt turned: some time after there wad a sunn att the bottom, on the body of the tree, and att length ittbecame a great light: and by itt the a shady representation of the glorified person of christ that hee was coming in the clouds to manifest his glory and by itt a Globe of glory and then defined itt self and became all one light

Wednesday the 3 September

haveing sweete communion I see^saw the glorified person of my deare lord Jesus Sitting on clouds with a Globe under his feete, which was the world and cloathed with a loose glorious white garment with severall spaces of red in itt his armes spread oppen ready to imbrace mee when fitted to enter therein. I would gladly have gone into his imbraces never to have come forth, Folio 41v But called to mind: how my blessed lord to as mee (one time) when I desired to bee taken upp to a glorious light, hee said itt must first come unto mee to make mee fitt to enter into itt I was content to stay longer from him ^{in some time}and said oh that I might bee but by his feete and sheltered with a little of his garment But soon[?] I put by that & thought that would not satisifie if theire till gott upp to be swallowed in his heart, After I see his heart in a great flames of red and white streames as if blood and fire flamed together I asked why there seemed bloud in itt It was said wee are purged by the bloud of the sonne, throw the puryfiing fire of the spirritt, I desired to see the print of the nailes in his feete, and first seeing itt in one foote then the other, very plaine, a brode flatt marke of the head of a naile giveing downe in the midest, where the naile had seemingly entred Then I desired to see his hand there was the same marke, and his brest againe was all in a flame of love for a longe time, and after he became all one pure flame, then like a great round light, And after hee appeared in his glorious person againe, and his bre^ast rip^ped oppen, That I might see a behould how hee loved us I would have beene taken to him, And I see one like my selfe: in a body of flesh goe, to goe, into Christs breast but was put back. Then I saw my selfe like a body of firy light, and hasted coming^comming to him, not questioning itts admittance and itt was imediately taken in I then being sattisfyed I was there, and there still arose these flames, till att length the blouddy streames became like flameing gold somtim ⟨somtim⟩itt flamed not, but I see a great glory & delight in his majestie, Folio 42r which I had severall times desired thus to see itt. As I had before some monthes synce After he left this great glorious throne which was a light sirkeling^circling as large as the heavens about him; and came down ^{walking in his}in his majesty with his loose garment, of glory, with most of itt white and came standing close to mee I desired his gratious influences should fill mee itt did still I desireing and itt filling, and desired the father alsoe might come to mee And there came a light brightness behind the sonne and through him this light perced: and soe to mee, and in mee; Then I desired the spirritt and itt came on the back of the father, through the father and the sonne to mee I still receving and they three giveing forth of their power and love, I still pressing to receive, whole Christ and the father, and the spirritt, and did receive his communication till ^{I had} taken in all and no more to receive, oh! who would not love him I cannot expresse but cease and admire.

Thursday yͤ 4 September 1679

There appeared Gravell walkes without hedges with great pleasantness and beautifull trees beyond

Ffriday 5 September

There was a large light like a very long cloud and att one end of itt a brode wheele as stood still, some time, After itt went rounf leasurely then faster, then le^asurely as if some invissable hand touched itt: that when that turned itt, itt wente apace; but when left itt, slackened And when itt went as I thinke itt the fasted something shott like Arowes betweene the ftaves of the wheele sev^erall times like arrowes, But I see not from where the seeminge arrowes arose nor what marke they were shuted att,

Satturday yͤ9th 6th

Thinkeing what this wheele went: and those arrowes as passed threw the wheele within itt: after of itts motion, and I was informed: The wheele and he never of itt was all one, Being moved by a wheele within within itt, which declared the providence of god in the world: The arrowes was us, which must take our flight threw the wheele, to the marke of our high calling: But wee had need begg wisdome of god his devine hand to help us through, the wheele of this world the various turnings, and over turning, which if itt douth but touch us itt, will turne us aside, and soe hard itt is to passe throw this world, and required as much skill, even a devine skillfull hand: as to shoot, an arrow between the staves of a wheele when itt is moveing swiftly round, and not be turned aside by itt Itt may bee compared to a cammell going through the eie of a needle oh power of night carry us through this world, keeping us from the evell will bowe and throwe our crowne att thy feete Jehovah

Saboth day yͤ 7th September

Being in complentation^{contemplation} of the union I had had with the Lord not not long synce, seeing his glorified person, and blessing god for theise inioyments And still pressing for further communion, As the blessed glory: of god came to mee filling mee, with great influences and quickning, raiseing my soule to an unexpressable delight: and often I see christ in his glorified Folio 43r person behind ^me: as I lay as in Sirkle of devine love, with great freedome and intimate familiarity with the father, which stood as a bre^ath or spirritt of aire by mee and I was very desirous: and was taken into the glory of the father ⟨that is my sperit was⟩ and I was in his hand, as clay in the hand of a potter and hee squeesed, and moulded ^{my sperit} as in water, till he had made itt one, with the glory, even wrapping ^itt and mixing itt with the glory till itt be com⟨came⟩ one with itt, standing in itt like ^like⟨like⟩ a breth of aire: which did greatly delight mee, often behoulding itt with ioy and continued imbraces, As lying uppon a cloud of love.

Monday yͤ 8 September

I awaked in the morning with such a flame of love warming and quickening mee. Butt severall times in the day, a de^adnes, and not that quickening as^which I though I might expect after such great comunion and union to bee made one spirritt Spirritt, with him derireing often in the day his returne, of love, and hoped att night that I might lye in his armes as had don the night ⟨before⟩ and the glory of the lorf appeared as the night before, with such sweet and flowing communication filling and revieveing, comforting the whole inward man. Compassing mee soe as I lay in a bed of his love presence his left had being under me and his right hand imbracing Thus being in his securitie and loving imbraces, there I held him and would not lett him goe, but that hee would lye all night as a bundle of mirre ^** Bundle of Myrrh refering to Solomons song betweene my brests, and hee was willingly held, when femine estemed [?] often, to bee going, hee still returned as I desired I thought what was I thus to hold him, were hee nott willing my loath to leave us, I thinking of that place, what dost thou see in a shulamite ^** Shulamite a figure in Solomons song, the company of tow armyes it was given to me to understand. the graces and comforts of which Folio 43v which are many: like the company of two arrises for strength and beuty, oh the chaine of graces as faith and the linkes of comfort as ioy love delight, praise, ado^ration, admiration, held by love his Galleres: and behind me I saw often the glorified person of Christ, and the sweet breathing of the fathers love, and fresh gales of the spirritt entring often unto me, and being compassed with itt, that I was all of the same nature like all glory I cannot tell itt being so much have my apprehention, and therefore above expression But sure I am great was the ioy I then felt high was the union to be made one, thus coming unto us, with such a filling glory: and surrounded with the same glory, that doule body and spirrit was all as itt were changed into a spirritt of aire or thyn smoake, The thoughts synce doth greatly ravish mee & of his sweetnes how I lay in his armes, and hee filling my lyinge hand to hand, mouth to mouth, eie to eie, brest to brest that I might bee refrehsed & harmed[?] receiving grace for grace So that the inward man, and outward, seemed, wholely swallowed upp

Tuesday 9 September

I found my hart this morning much inflamed and awaked alsoe in his armes: and seeing the glorified person of christ behind mee: I considered what itt me^ant, sure I wanted his deiveing[?] powers sure he hath seene me slack or remis: and I begged his strength: for I had now seene him there behind mee (But not takeing then such observation) and I looked and said lett him kisse mee, with the kisses of his mouth and there came like to firy streames: one out of one side of his mouth, the other out of the other side, and compassed my head with the two, other ends, in my mouth so Folio 44r So that itt seemed like a ring, of firy gold, held between his lipps, surkeling round my head, and the other part, of the ring betweene my lipps he being behind me, I said this Is more then Isaiah desired / which was that god would touch, his lipps, with a cole from his alter But god hath touched mee with fire from his lipps: a pledge of his love And then 44 Folio 44v Folio 45r 45 And ^then the nuptiall^nuptiall(for soe itt was, That I turned to see him againe, being desirous of his inioyment and he removed comign to me, expressing great love delight and ioy, which caused in me admiration, what manner of communication this was, even for the holy Ghost to come to mee and the power of the hyest, to overshaddowe mee, Oh the love of god, oh Jesus I am thine thou hast ravished mee, thou hast taken away my heart, I am full wanting words to merit[?] oh the sweetnes, and full sattisfaction, haveing such love as is, better then wine

Att midnight I was pressing for the same inioyment as I had the night before, being swallowed upp of the father, and taken into him, being like all one glory: and this morning with in christ imbraces even the nupshall, after the ring of - glory: and then the glory of the father came. I lying as in a cloud in itt and itt came filling with love, life, vertue and power, ioy delight and praise, Then I thought of the glory, of the Sonne ⟨which⟩I as^which hade inioyed so much love from, and desired him the Glorified person, of christ, and the glory of the father, so that I was swallowed upp with this ioy and festivitie, holding them with great filling ioy: sometime wee were 'all one' , Sometimes as three, sometimes I taken into them, other times they filling mee, even the whole man, with such transports That though all the sences, was delighted yett nott as in this body, But a body fitted for such a Union far surmounting, all earthly delights not in the least to bee compared with itt ^{being as wee Emblages of Eternall bliss} And having Som indisposition of body, sometimes when att leasure to take notis or els, some little paine permitted, to make use of my famelliarity with him ^whoas was in me. Folio 45v Folio 46r And could goe allsoe to ease mee (ffor what ever I desired as to comunion and (Union I had) so he could ⟨do⟩the same doe what I desired for the body, which was as soone answered, as desired, sometimes hee would seeme to goe, soe stilly away, as I might nott feele him, But my ernest reaching desires, soone caused his returne, even to take him fully into mee, soe that I was full with the glory, of the father, sonne and holy ghost, being come to dwell and take there abode in me: And their influences did soe remaine, as I felt they had taken posession, whiping the buyers, and sellers, out of my heart out of the temple of my heart. But who can expresse, itt is soe great, That I att the present, thinke, one cannott desire more, then I feele, onely desire to bee capable to expresse, But what I could declare, cannot bee conceived nor beleeved, But by those, as hath itt felt, But itt doth fully Sattisfie mee, that I have had, Folio 46v Folio 47r And have such freedome of converse & familiaritie as ^{with ones selfe} which was felt, such indereing love, well may hee be called a god of love, whose love hath out donne the most neerest, and dearest Relations. These is but shaddy representations, of what hath beene acted and manifested to the life, by himselfe, as^who is life, and power And thus, I was filled with ^such expressions, Then said I againe, now I feele him filling mee, soe full as att present, I can desire noe more, nor what can bee more ffor when I looke inward, there I see him the father sonne, an Spirritt, If I looke about mee, there he sorounds mee, that I feele his imbraces, his kisses of his mouth, Is allwaies remembered by mee, I have often groned, att this state of absence, Thus to bee cabined in flesh, that I could not take my flight and bee with him, But now I have seene him come running to mee, and comes and abides, and is close cabened in mee, so that this is heaven where his presence is. Folio 47v Folio 48r ffor these severall yeares I have desired to injoy as much here as the Soule is capable of soe that here =after I might injoy as much glory, as the soules glorified is capable of inioyinge, But little thought ⟨thatrefined⟩soe much wee had beene capable of heere, as I have (though then) I had inioyed much, But what seene^since and now I feele, I should have thought itt presumption to ^have desired itt, nott in the least, being able to conceave that god, oh that god, who is soe great in power honour, glory and power. That soe great a maiestie, should condicend to come downe, and delight himselfe, with the Sonne of men, of who can beleeve what is possible, for inflight [?] love to declare, and communicate, soe to suffer himselfe to beheld and over come by us, when often hee seemed to goe, yett how esily and willingly was hee held, by his owne power in mee, which was the stronger, As stronger was god in Jacob, that held the Angell, then god in the Angell, Thus was god as a father seemed^ing to goe, but looketh back with delight, to see the child, reach after itt^him and comes back with pleasure, to see the childes fondnesse. And itt is more then probable, that god may seeme to goe, when indeed, hee will not leave us Folio 48v Folio 49r onely he delights to leave us cey[?] after him: and returnes with more pleasing imbraces to his children the Darling of his Soule, which hee will by no meanes grewe them ^he rather seemes to hire them for their love, and is not burdened, though wee by ur fondnesse to him, are allwaies crying after him: nothing grewes him like when his Israell will none of him, and delights to take upp with any thing short, or below himselfe, many and most what hath been sett downe was then used, and blessing god for such, and such inioyments: as I had desired and hee answered: saying often before he came, come thou, blessed of my soule, enter into thy garden & And when hee, was come in, I said oh thou faire one the cheifest among ten thousand: eate thy hony combe with thy honey, drinke thy wine with thy milke, often and many tymes, useing most of the expressions between christ & his spouse: with other places of scripture, nay a contineued spirituall parley, Sometimes a petition, then answered, Then praised saying often, oh thou Emanuell god with us, god in us oh Jehovah, Soe contineually repeating such expressions as sutable to such comunications, But ^shall seace & admire being, but a breife, of what was manifested

Folio 49v A: song of soloms 4 cap: & vers Folio 50r And I att that time declared: oh Lord ever more fill mee and thine 50

Wednesday the 10th September 1679

I was filled with his glory, being well assured of his being in mee, haveing taken possession to rule and governe mee, and att night I blessed and praised, that Emanuell god with us, I had in mee, and surrounded mee: being full, and knowing, hee stood by mee, I looked for him, And I see^saw the glory of the father, stand by mee, and the glory of the sonne, on his right hand, standing still, that I might see, and fully behould them, and as if they said, looke on us, is there nothing you can see to desire, or is there any thing, ⁱⁿ us not desirable, I said yea lord, thou art alltogether lovely, the cheife of ten thousand, and ^I had beheld theⁱre glory begining att the feete, and so upwards, The glory being soe great as in glorified parsonall^nstie, both like one, The sonne being the expresse image of his father, And having an awe of their maiestie, gave one glace towards their eies (finding my heart affected, They came as if one looke of myne eie, had ravished them; and came as leaping and runninge with ioy and ^great delight, and lay in my bosome But to see the love, of the lord, of glory, Itt caused noe more strength to remaine in mee, but was astonished Folio 50v Folio 51r (as ^I often have beene) And said lord dost thou brestm who hath often desired to lye in thyne, And have had great delight, when have beene admitted, Did Elizabeth reioyce that the mother of her lorde, was come to her what ioy to have the lord, of that mother, thus in his glory to deserve^seme, to receive delight in us; oh thou father of love, thou blessed Jesus, With many such scriptures as his being betrothed to us, in loveing kindnes and tendernes^mercy but shall forbeare, Then they oppened my stomacke & clasped themselves one in an other, and went into my stomacke, and closed ^it upp againe, and turned to and fro, as if removed whatever was unesie and soe continued (I beinge filled with great praise) & many scriptures as^which did declare such sweet comunion was brought to mee, And I saw after by the inward spirrituall sight, within mee, The glorified person of god the father sitt on my soule as on a throne with a glorious garment, and brifht glory) behind him, and on the back of his head like a sunne, but greater glorys, which heate, did warme & refresh causing ioy, and praise, that hee had taken the power and did reigne, over all my will and affections conquering and to conquest, and ^I saw him stampe all powers under him, but oh the ioy, as^then I had gotten Folio 51v Folio 52r 52 my god, my saviour and redeemer, sitting in mee, as one a throne of refiners fire , to purifie, and take away all drosse,

Thursday the 11th

This day I was greatly transported with ioy in the This day I was greatly transported with ioy in the purchased possession, noe need (^at that present) of more for I had all and was full: Att evening I concidered that when I saw the glorified person of the father, and the glorified person of christ att his right hand being the expresse image of his father ^& contemplating with great delight I concidered; I saw noe crowne, the father had, when he sett^sate in his glory uppon the throne of my affections, soe that itt might imply hee would nott yett confer^conquer fully; all to himselfe, and I was conderened^concernd, And I remembred they had no crownes when they stood by mee, and bid mee looke, on them missing^suseing much on itt, itt was said, no they had no crownes, before they entered into you, for you were their crownes But I did not know how to receive itt: But further ^I said hee had no crowne, when sett^sate in his glory in mee: But itt was said hee had a crowne, for you were his crowne, Folio 52v Folio 53r nether could I tell how to understand this his ^highe expression, even in feare, But itt came a third time with great power: you are my crowne & reioyceing Att which my heart was over come, even that scarce strenght remained, Till ^I was strenthened by the like expressions, The lords people, is his portion & inheritance, his Jewells, which he tendereth as the apple of hie eie, his delight is in the prayers of his saints, Lett mee heare your voice for itt is sweete and see your countenance, for itt is comly ^{& it wos furder decld⟨declared⟩ to my great satisfactan, that saints} they are lovely ^{or crowned} his lovelynesse & hee may well looke uppon them as such, when hee sees onely himselfe in them a reflection of his beuty After att night being much in praise, and deepe humiliation, to admire gods great love, which caused then a flameing heate, and even att any time, when ^I meditate, or read of his great love, to me beyond expression, and by and^an inward spirituall eie, I saw ^{in me} the glory, of the father, sitt in the same maiestie, I had seene before, as on a throne (in or seated) on my heart, or will, and affections, with that same bright light & heate Folio 53v x which ahir was a most pleasant delightful ^colour Chestnut colour brown, large & Curly Folio 54r behind, and on the back of his head as^which flamed much to warme mee, to my brest and throte, And I saw a blacke foule^foul spirritt, which I had seene some glimps on, wonce before, creepe within wee att the, futt^foot, of these glorys, and came now att his feete, bowing and beseeching; I was instructed that he besought, if he must bee cast out of the man, the will, and affections, seeing the glory of god had taken possession. That hee might enter into the heard of swine, whih I understood to bee the ^sensitive sensitiv life, which I prayed he might not hurt nor any more prevaise over the outward man, After being much in blessing, god, I see^saw the glorified person of christ, by mee, as if he were with mee a sleepe, I looked and admired his beuty and somet^hing went hastily to his eare & admired itt, putting back his hare with delight + and caused mee to looke, and admire his eare, But then I^{which hair was a most pleasant and delightful colour chestnut} understood itt nott, but lay greatly refres^hed with quickening warmth and power, from him, soe that itt sprung in life, all over mee, And after came a great glory ofthe fathers, diety, influencing ^influencing life a breath & stood by us, filling mee, with great delight, and transporting ioy, that the father Folio 54v Margent this representashan of xt, being a plepe & auther expresans hsve a larg significashan tho: we understand but ye degrees: Folio 55r 55 was come to see his children, when a bed to vissitt with his loving over shaddowing presence, as^which had such a filling vertue, in itt, to see the glory of god before mee, and christs personally to lye sleeping, by mee, and the glory of god sett (as above mentioned) in his glory within mee, as on a throne, doe but conceive itt, if you can, what a ioy this may cause in a ^similarsigent creature, thus filled and compassed with devine power, within mee to see his power and goodnes, by mee, to behould his beuty and sweetnes; Before mee, his love & glory displayed: There lay I watching my beloved nott willing to awake him till hee pleased: But finding him still sleepe, fearing hee was not pleased, But soone was comforted as^that itt did declare hee was most of all pleased, seeing hee was come to abide and sleepe, and a sleepe did conclude some stay, nott a vissitt, and a way, this stayed mee, As alsoe that concerning the spouse, which would not have christ, wakened till hee pleased But often lookeing receiving the breath from his mouth, and lay downe, with stillnes, and great content ^that hee was there, oh blessed company! this represen Folio 55v margent of God _{as one as grone said he knew not in sperit from whens it came not whither went he grone something grond for wot it wantid}

Ffriday the 12th

In the morning I awakened ^being very dilligent, to see and observe, whether the beloved of my soule lay by mee as I left him a sleepe, and I said oh thou the delight of my soule, thou faire one come away: But soone was stayed: not to awake my love till hee please: and when I looked to admire him, and I was caused to admire his eare, with great delight and admiration, which caused mee to inquire, why seeing hee was alltogether lovely: why should the cheife delight bee directed to his eare, when itt might ^rather seeme lesse lovely, then hs cheekes and ye other ^Butifull parts of his face, I was tould, that was his right eare which had beene soe, often, ready to heare, and to come, and answere, with comunion and union, and frendily vissitts as I had had, he hath heard my requests, and fully answered, above what I could conceave, accordinglie as itt is said: who giveth above, what wee can aske or thinke ^{& someone spack to me & saying furder} his eare means the grones; which wee would have, so that his eare, hath not onely heard what wee have, asked, many tymes Folio 56v Folio 57r and ^have often, being^been answered, but he hath heard and given what you understand, not, to aske, but would, have asked, if you, had knowne, itt) ^{& furder sad to me}, Itt is accounted as a great fabour, from, and earthly kinge, to bee soe esteemed as to have his eare, but ^what is the kinge of kinges: Then I desired, to see his hand, which hee had layed some years agoe on my head: of that^that passed all over mee, removeing a longe illness; and feare before itt, as itt went over mee, ^ofwhich I was imediately well. goeing forth the next day being lords day, and noe more a returne of that distemper, to admiration, when the Docter^physician could tell us more to doe, then hee had don and this hand I saw ^saw laid out of the head which was his right hand of power, which had healed mee great were the delights, and severall were the comforts of this day: Att night ^{I saw I saw paradise a sight} see his glorified person a sleepe by mee, I desired to see his crowne on his head, and I did, after itt was lande by him, hee still a sleepe, I touched his hand and drewe neare him, but something drewe him further from mee hee seeing seenceing to bee in a deepe sleepe even like one in a sound^swoon, no motion, ^but when moved but^{som power} his head hung lookeing pale, I was much tro^ubled least I had don any thing to estrange him, and cause that drawing away, by some one as drew him Folio 57v Folio 58r and examined my selfe of my demeanor that day as to the world, heaveing some little thing to charge my selfe with, was greatly concerned att lenght I perceaved hee was nott fully a sleepe and neerer mee then before, I said oh thou beloved, that sleepeth but thy heart waketh and there arose a crimson blushing ^couller in his face cheekes, and began to awake, and drew back his head to looke on mee, and looked a little strang like not fully awake, as if hee did not know mee at which I was more trobled, and soe a second even three or fewer times, Till I became much greved, and I intreated the lord for his wonted favours, and if he see any thing by mee, as^which was not becoming a spouse betrothed to soe deere and glorious a saviour as himselfe, that he would bee pleased to cure mee, and keepe mee, and hee att lenght came neere though longe first, and came neerer and neerer till hee laid his mouth to my mouth, And there was a booke laid, betwixt his mouth and myne oppen, touching the leaves with his mouth, and the leaves touched my mouth, Itt was said that I might receive the cap^Law att his mouth and that which I read in itt, was, vilis facies and I was told that was the ^bookback of the creature Folio 58v Folio 59r a vile face which I must nott looke into, but must must wholely delight in him, which I did greatly desire pardon if he had seene any thing amisse and power against, And then great was the delight in christ admitted to behould and admire whole christ, his beuty being alltogether lovely

Satturday the 13

haveing had sweet revivieing from him even such stronge consolations scarse ^to containe his gratious vissetts, and when I was a bed, being much in prayer for the lords great and wonderfull appearances, I was in some hast to see if my deere lord Jesus blessed saviour lay by mee as the night before, and soone after his glorious person I saw by mee with great delight, and quickening from the god of all glory which came and overshaddowed, as compassing with his love, for which I was caused to blesse god for all his mercies, who had beene my god from my youth and heatherto had helped mee, and had not beene a barren wildernes, But a well of consolation, a fountaine of comfort, a filling satisfing good, even beyond conception, and when these ioyes hath surpassed my apprehensions of thee (as often they have don) Then thou hast taken in and comprehended mee, oh that thou shouldest this communicate thy selfe, when black by reason the sunn of temptation had looked on us, Folio 59v Note ye Folio 60r 60 oh thou sonne of glory, wee are black by reason of the vase of flesh as is drawne over us, this corruptable peece of mortallity That none but thy pure peircing eye of glory can looke itt throw to see thy signett on our heart oh thou Emanuell god with us, God in us, oh the glory I find in mee, thy glorified humanity, And this glory lying in my arise^{shadowing me}, and thy Spirritt of love sheltering sorounfing, This is one such porch of heaven, severall scriptures, oh thou rose of Sharon, thou bluch of glory, oh thou lyly of the valley, thy purity and humani^elity, oh create in mee a cleane heart, and renew in mee a right spirritt, as thou hast promised and many other inlargments: And after sung a hyme of plate ye terne stilnes is one of thy hyest many festaphe- shanspraise, but can remember none of that, then became a great stillnes, and the glorified person of christ seemed often to kisse mee, with the kisses of his mouth for his love is better than wine, reioyceing very much in mee, overshaddowing & comunicating himself in a most indearing conjucall affection, filling & answering my whole desire, and soe abided in his loves, and calf out that fowle blacke spirritt, which I had seene very black, and feared itts disturbance, as some had beene torne by the foule spirritt but he tooke itt away without paine commanding itt, to depart and bee gon And I thought I see itt goe to itts center, for which and for his great love in itt, aand his filling presence Folio 60v was noe Small ioy and delight, nay Soe great was the delight, and glory: as can onely say glorious glory, Itt was even the answere of tthat prayer (of him, as was all essenced in love) that they may ⟨John 17⟩bee won in mee, as I and the father are one, that they may bee one in us, christ in us and wee in him, wee shall better understand itt in heaven the which oh lord hasten

Saboth day yͤ 14 September 1679

In the morning I still found him, resting in his loves, in fresh and full comunications and over shaddowing presence, remaining all the day: that still hee was allwaies with mee, nothing did cause his with drawing, which seemed to mee very wonderfull, and ^I said sure itt declares his great love as if he had some great thing to bring to passe: and being under his shaddow, hee sure can deny mee nothing, and there was a word spake in mee, for mee, lord make mee perfect, and further I say sanctifie mee throughout, makeing mee meete for the inheritance, After I spake oh lord, what wilt thou deere Jesus doe for mee hee ecoed back againe, what wilt thou that I doe unto thee, and imediately I replyed: or ^rather one spake in mee for mee, lord what ever is in thy selfe to give, and when I had said these wordes, Folio 61r I thought sure, you aire drunke as with newe wine know you, what a great thing you have asked I said lord wait what is not in thy selfe to give, who art our mediator, att the right hand of the father, and won with the father, coe equall, coe eternall, and what cannot thou doe

And then became a stillnes, to see, and behould, what the lord, would doe, and he oppened my stomack and bowells, and filled mee^them as with part of his shady presence, and cloudy influences, and the other part ^{of him}over mee, for some time, and after looked very searchingly, caused mee to remember that place I will search Jerusalem with candles stretching mee out, seeing his strict observation one mee, I said why lookest thou soe on mee, ^o lord, he said because none but my selfe must, and I much give my selfe up to him, as a chast spouse, not to bee adulterated with thewith the world, I said bee itt soe lord to walke as well knowing, his ielous iee eye is over mee, after hee tooke out my bowells removing them clensing them, and cast out the small darke spirritts which was as the spawne of the great one, as was cast out before, which was under the bowells crept to the chast to him them selves and I desired and he commanded them to depart to their^{to their to their} owne center of darkness, and when he had clensed the my Bowells Folio 61v hee tooke oyle, rubing them betweene his handes, which shady handes I see, and himselfe like a shady figure and when rubbed them, and oyled them a second time hee looked to see if they were cleere as to bee seene through, snd like^took the end of one up and a crewett of oyle being by him, hee pored ⁱⁿ itt till all the inside of the gutts^bowells were oyled allsoe: And I cried out, oh thou annoynted of the father, art thou come to annoynt mee, with this precious golded oyle and sweete odors, not onely my bowells, but my head and my hands But was sylenced as peter, and I further said lord what is this for ^{he said} To declare to you that your bowells must goe no more after the creator Then he tooke my liver and clensed itt, and cutting out the gall throwing itt from him, and pouring oyle over itt, and after into itt, And I said what is this for lord, hee said not to live to the creature not have your life bloud placed belowe, but to cast from you all gall and bitternes, Then the sphere sphere, was emptied and clensed with oyle & oylw pouring in itt, And I said what doth this meane and he said to have no wrath nor mallice nor passion left in you, and then was still, some time and then hee said, what shall I doe more, and I said, lord what thou pleaseth, And hee tooke my heart and cutt itt oppen clensing all the black bloud Folio 62r out of itt a good while, and itt became cleane: and a little smaller: and he closed itt upp againe holding itt in his hand, and itt sprung out a fresh, in pure bloud, severall times, and he looked on itt, and was still, a good While with great affection and passions even to teares, I said why lookest thou, soe on my heart, hee said (with teares) and caused mee to weep much. I looke to see that heart bleed, that hath soe often ^been found sitting bleeding for sinne, for the indulg^weting of corruption, and the power of temptation, which caused great greife, thus to see his teares, to sucker us when tempted: which Idea is soe melting even to wash my paper with teares,

how doth hee sucker us now: and there came a filling influence, like a breth of thyn misty aire, and it in itt some small thing purely white and Raped^Raped itt about my heart, as to binde itt upp, Itt was said that white, like lyly, that ^wos bound about my heart was the lyly of purity and humility, and the heart looked very pure and lovely, and after the heart flamed red and white, sinking downe by degrees, till itt came betweene the liver and the spleene, and flamed forth like streemes of bloud and milke yett not mixinge I asked what that was. I was told itt was the same as I had seene flame in the heart of christ, which was told mee Folio 62v to bee the bloud and Spirritt to clense and purifie and soe continued flameing, till all the substance of the heart was consumed to a firy cole, and soe lay glowing I said if thou wilt poure of thy oyl itt will flame and he did and itt flamed out ^then againe, and itt conceived glowing till itt had brought all into itts owne nature soe that att last nothing remained of all the inwards But a large cleere stone of fire like firy glasse and then my Jesus Said now there is roome for mee, and went into my stomacke, itt being oppen, then came out againe, and there went in the same thynne spirritt I see before, like a breth of misty aire, where hee came forth, and like from my throte, to my stomack, came streames downe unto mee, to my stomack to the breath of aire, I asked what itt was, and I was caused to blesse god for his spirritt sent in mee, I said now is nothing left in mee, but my loungs, which is as the breath hee said they must bee dona away allsoe, And onely breath that breath as is of the holy gost, as is breathed in you, to breath out to others, I was as one taken out of my selfe: yet as in my selfe, ans after I felt such influences, and flameing heat within, as one with whom the lord, had beene warming and refreshinge, and much in blessing god: This day, when wee were mett together I see in vission a large moone in a frame

monday yͤ 15

This morning I awaked with such a burning glowing heat, and filled with praise, I said oh deare lord Jesus what hast thou don to mee, thou knowest what further is meant, then is as yett declared, Thus to anoynt mee and take all of selfe out of mee, hee said: what I have don thou knowest not now, but thou Shalt know hereafter I said Lord I am willing to doe and suffer what thou wilt, many times and often in the day still did the Idea appeareth of his annoynting; and how itt all sentured in a firy stone, as had consumed all into itts owne nature, Att evening sweet was the comunion of his love who is all love, the essentiall being of love, and came to mee att night severall times, till this light passed over mee, and under mee, takeing mee into itt, thus compassing like a wall of light, and after this light became a great surkeling and a strong firy light, like a misty sunn within itt, I still being in the midest till I was changed into the greatest refined brightnes like a pure transparent bodym emotied to a case which body was dec;ared tp be such a one as was made meete for glory: and as wee should have when glorified and said this is transfiguration, like a figure of a man but changed in nature and substance, trnasubstantiated into his nature: Then was I laid downe in the midest of this exceeding bright glory: and covered with a Folio 63v cloudy covering noe biger then my selfe: and when had layne there some time, with a stillnes, Then something gave mee a drawing touch and pulled mee upp: and I becam like a refined bright burning Silver, Streameing out all round ^me like bright steaming fire, all out as of soe many eies or powers all round ^me But I had noe figure but like a firy peece of silver, after like to red hott glasse and foulded up together itt was, Then became a stillnes Then againe changed into that cleere brifht shining bodily figure, and after taken into the pure light, Itt then being like a flame, then into a figure againe, Then an other figure with itt, in the flame melting with great ioy and delight, and then made one with the flame Thus severall times abiding in this glory, even made one with itt, nott being sencible or scarse to beleeve I had any other body, then all light all glory: So that sometimes, when I was Sencible, I found Some paynes and illnes uppon mee, but when in this light, felt none nay, when I could act, soe much of the sences, as to mind, wheather I had the same paine then and I felt itt nott, and my head was as all light & where I had felt the other paines ^{wch was} neere my side, That allsoe regard my illnes in my head: I found itt was taken away by that power coming into my head, and filing mee Folio 64r and ittL and when these glory was over, I found such a flame on my heart, But neither was I sensible of that before, when so changed, because then, like all over in light, life, and quickning refreshment, Then became a great stillnes, all sences shutt, After I see a small white light like a doore, and written uppon in hebrew carecters יהוה‎ Jehovah and round itt the greatest beuty like a wall and this day ^often did I see the invissible handes search and clensing, and annoyntinge my bowells, to make mee fitt for this state (which is the first to bee don)

Tuesday yͤ 16 September 1679

This morning I awakened being filled with praise, and such a glowing flame, within mee, like a flame shutt upp as wanted to breake forth, thy time will come when thy will, will be don in our inward earth, as itt is in heaven severall times this day, I seemed to have like no weighty body, but like as if a body of aire, or all spirritt, & Att evening ^{caught up} I seemed againe like an atheriall body and a light came to mee, then like streames or became of light, then like a shaddowing glory came, Then light came severall tymes, and then came under mee and a pure surkeling firy light rounf mee, That I lay in a Globe, or wall of firey light streaming out one the sides like the sunn, after came a white light like a sheete, and was laide over mee, Folio 64v and dabled back uppon my stomack: and after as I continuewed soe to lye: I see my face like^luck out of a window out of the rich wall, I had seene the night before, and was in rich clothinge, like clow^thed with the wall of rich stones, and divers collours like a rockey wall But the darke powers, did interpose; and severall interuptions before and after,

Wednesday yͤ 17

This morning I awaked with a sweet strang powerfull floore in me, raising me to great ioy and delight and light appeared, but strife against itt, so that I found some dificulty But blessed bee god, who giveth us the victory, through our lord Jesus Christ, And though this day hath mett with the cares thereof: and so with the evill thereof: yett the flame gitts the uppermost, and will att lenght conqor and subdew all under him, even soe come lord Jesus, And the hand I saw this day, annoynting the bowells and shyness, with much oyle and hasted, as one as had neere don that part: and att evening I seewan eye come very close to mee, and itt looked something perceivinge and soone gon, then againe itt came, Folio 65r 65 And the eye was turned quite upwards, the upper part of the lid at the bottom, Then itt appeared as att first and my head was shakied or something in itt shoke itt within, then the same came within mee, and tooke the inwards of my stomack, and shooke itt, and said this shalt then bee shaken from the dust of the earth: and thus will the lord shake the nations, and my spirritt was caught from mee, and I became like one a sleepe, or ina trance whose sences was locked upp: and a cloud came and spred itt selfe on the earth, and on mee, reachinf alsoe to a hill, where many people walked foreright, till they came to a lands end, so disappeared: after a pure pleasant skye, and an other company of people, and this cloud was taken up and wrapped over them: and itt was turned by some invissible hand till itt seemed as if there heads was to the ground and feete uppermost, then itt was still and but itt a shady Tabernacle , Then their appeared a misty representation full of motion: and I was guided by the eye of a friend, I see there to looke to itt then to looke further, and there came an vision Folio 65v inneumerable people, and then sentured together uppon a Globe of earth, or a flatt round peece of earth and went round itt till they were so giddy, as they reeled like drunken men falling ^downe one uppon and other, and soe disappeared, then by itt was an other flat globe of earth where many stood thick and still, but the earth moved and they were moved by itt round: as you winde upp a watch, and when had wound its time, itt gave a golt giveing back as a thing overwound, then itt disappeared Then a watch appeared with many figures signifying the severall motions of it, Then a sunn diall (after the watch was gon) with a hand diall as was full of motion shakeing, But I see not the howrer itt directed to, and much light appeared about itt, being delighted in itt, but somethinge came and gave mee a sudden touch to mind a place as the watch, and the round sunn diall had gon downe into, But I understand itt not, though I did desire itt: Then I thought of the temple or tabernacle I had seene, and the feet was uppermost, and all over turned: I said sure god is come to shake and over turne, overturne, the eye was turned, upp to god Folio 66r And when all was gon ^there appeared uppon this high hilly cloud like a fountaine oppen, as broade, on the top as a pound, and an edge of gold about itt, as if itt were tintured with the rich liquor, in itt, or like a grear bason of gold: and out of this brode fountaine ^{as wos} fixed in a cloudy hill, I poured streames of a rich golden liquor, golden oyle for a great while, then this fountaine became a fountaine of pure water, and large, the hilly cloud became like a mountaine, and the water swellid over: and itt was said, there is a fountaine oppen for Inda and Jerusalem to wash in, lazy enough for syn and uncleannes, to bee taken away -

Thursday yͤ 18

There came like a hand and passed over us part of mee three times, and my stomack was ripped upp and laid oppen, then came a light, where this surkeling hand had before passed, like a sunn to search more strictly then with candles which was placed, as att the pitt of my stomack and this light was like a sunn as shined through mee, and tooke mee into this light, That is to say parte of mee was like one whicth the lightm which shyned like Folio 66v fyry gold, and my ipper parts as my head and brest was rapped ^{in white} like a lyly I asked after the meaning of itt, Itt was said itt was the lyly purity and after that lyly whitenes, became like transparent silver, and was compassed as with a cloud or wall, with stepps to goe upp on the cloud, and above itt a doore as was oppen into paradice

Ffriday the 19th

Some small light appeared then a white taberancle Some small light appeared then a white tabernacle walled about, and an inward court walled in, and the out court was walled in: and the wall was all of open doors, or an arch frame for doores, as of every one had there doore, after the foores were made upp like one with the wallm if white, but after the wall fell downe from the bottom, and lay whole on the ground: and the tabernakle was pulled downe and ruinated like a heape This was declared god would pull downe and destroy what is not of his building: and I see a friend of myne as I had seene before, on the wesday night vission, standing by or within the falne wall, speake very earnestly like one a preachinge, I seeing him so very ernest was moved to speake for him before the lord as have formerly beged the substance of the same request and I said lord what wilt thou doe for his name, which hath beene so rent, or rather thy name in him, Folio 67r I was soone answered with these wordes I will raise him upp on hight and his dwelling shall nott bee with men and hen, my friend being like a body of cloud came downe from the place where hee stood which was like one a cloud, and he was taken upp againe by degrees till passed that cloud, and then came a beame of streaming light which drew him upp a very great heigth till I could see him noe more and after some appearances, as if hee decended part of the way againe Then where the wall was fallen was raised an other white smove wall, but the court not so large but as larg as the inward court was and a building within itt of with many windowes I said this is not like the other which had no light, but these hath windowes and the glory of the lord filleth itt, Itt was all full of light coming forth att the windowes, And I see like a window into heaven, which was to looke throu as a glasse, to ^a most inconceavable pure light, and then an other larger window of pure light and Landskipp

Satturday yͤ 20th September 1679

meditating whome the lord would delight to honour and confer such dignity on, as the key of the power, and there came a cloud pire white ^& written on, I am the way that the way, to have his dignity was to follow Christ which was the way: and path of holynes, If wee would parsonate Christ wee must first walke, as christ did walking declares a continued motion going on to attaine whole christ which wee may read by his life and the rules [?] Folio 67v these visions ware when did live with dr pordich

o ye nyer may to salvashan: ye consiens I gods vise gerent, and ceep records in ye soule, (in I) our mementoL set there by god, let it be our gide 68 and folow ye dicktits of it- in our furst stae if seme of a mistaris set over us by wisdom to gide us, as a govorness to bring us up to her self, I mene vis Ito wisom